I feel like my life has turned into a gigantic roller coaster ride.
I’m talking the super freaky scream your way through it kind of ride which makes you want to yell, “Stop the ride! I want to get off!”
The last few months have been anything but easy. First I went back to work after fifteen years as a stay at home mom. Then I moved, had a short skin cancer scare, and was forced to take a leave of absence from school.
But the whole truth is that in the midst of all of this, I got divorced.
My life has been turned upside down so many times in recent months, that I’m not sure I really know which way is up anymore.
I’m tired and stressed out, worried about my kids, and money and the future. I’m wondering if I’ll be able to finish school. All in all, I’m finding it hard some days not to wallow in self-pity.
As much as I wanted the divorce, the truth is I’m heart-broken. I never imagined that after sixteen years it would all end like this.
I try so hard to find moments of joy and to hold onto them, but I struggle to find balance.
So I haven’t been around much lately. I don’t really feel like I have anything funny to say and find it very difficult to get into trying to take a great picture of a bowl of ice cream, no matter how damn good it was!
All I can do is take it one day at a time. And today I’m going to get lost in the sight of the sun setting over the horizon…
Thank you for being patient with me!