More Thankful than Ever

After a long and torturous week of waiting for the biopsy results, I found out yesterday that I do indeed have skin cancer.

In one quick moment I was left thinking, holy crap I have skin cancer. Actually that’s not what I really thought, but since what I really thought isn’t particularly appropriate, we’ll just run with this.

I’m kind of floored by it. I guess there was a huge part of me that thought the biopsies they did were just routine. And now I’m scared. Scared and worried.

I’m sitting here trying hard not to feel overwhelmed. These are some of the moments in life I find the most difficult to deal with. Part of me wants to just scream and rage at the unfairness of it all. Part of me wants to fall apart and cry on the shoulder of someone I love. And part of me wants to fight like hell.

All evening, my thoughts kept returning to this quote:

“We don’t need more to be thankful for. We need to be more thankful.” –Unknown (<–tweet this quote)

I know this sucks, but the best way through it is to accept it and make the best of it…

So I will be more thankful. I’m thankful that it was caught early, and that I still have insurance. I’m thankful that I’m surrounded by the love and support of my family and good friends.

And I’m incredibly grateful for all the friends and even the total strangers who have stopped by and emailed with their love and well wishes. I’m thankful for all the prayers and the words of kindness. I wish I could open my heart to you and show you how much each and every single one of them means to me. I am so blessed!

Wherever this road may take me, I truly am thankful.

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Comments

  1. 1

    I missed the news that you were even having a biopsy, I’m so sorry to hear that and for the news it brought. I LOVE your outlook though. Skin cancer is so prevalent and it’s so important to catch it early. You are an inspiration and in my thoughts and prayers!

  2. 2
    Patricia says:

    You will be on my personal Prayer Roll. So glad it was caught early. Blessings to you and your Family.

  3. 3

    So sorry to here that you have to face this trial in your life I have prayed for you just now and will continue to pray.

  4. 4

    Oh Jen, I am thinking about you! So glad they caught it early, and you can do something about it. You have a great outlook on it, and that is a HUGE help!! My mom had stomach cancer right after I got engaged. She had a great attitude and had a very similar outlook. I firmly believe that is part of the reason she beat it so quickly!

  5. 5

    Jen, I’m glad that they took a biopsy early and that you will be getting treatment right away. Your outlook is inspiring and will help you overcome this. Thoughts and prayers with you!

  6. 7

    I have been anxiously waiting for the result from that biopsy and now am sitting here stunned. I’ve had you on my prayer list and will definitely keep your name there, adding your whole family as you all must be reeling from the news and scrambling to figure things out. Keep us updated, ok? Big hugs.

  7. 9

    You’re in my thoughts. Stay strong!

  8. 10
    Billie- Jo Seavey says:

    Jen, I’m so glad you had it checked early. That makes a huge difference . I’m so sorry that you have to go through this right now. I wish this week was vacation instead of last week. I would have come down for a couple days. My husband said he would take care of everything if I came to visit. Everything will be ok Jen. I will be thinking, and praying for you. If you need anything or just need someone to talk to get ahold of me. If you need my phone number Facebook me. Hang in there. :)

  9. 12

    Jen, my thoughts are with you and I hope I can be as strong and thankful as you when troubles strike – I generally am NOT… I know every case is different, but my Dad also had a biopsy that came back positive for skin cancer. But they cause it very early and were able to remove the mole (in his case) and the cancer never surfaced again. Regardless of what happens, cut yourself some slack and don’t be afraid to lean on the love of others…

  10. 14

    Oh Jen, I am so sorry to hear that :( I wish I was there to help you through all of this. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and the family. Let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do…from a million miles away.

  11. 16

    They say that attitude plays a huge part in the recovery of serious illnesses. I know that there will be times when you will scream into your pillow, but your mostly positive attitude will help you a ton. I will be praying for you and your kids.

  12. 17

    Prayers, love and light to you Jen.

    What a nice quote you shared on thankfulness – here’s a short vignette that I thought might make you smile ~ I really enjoyed it. It’s called “A reminder of the Important things in Life”
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=choOYBFZBVA

    Big hug, xo Kelly.

  13. 19

    I had everything crossed hoping that it would come back negative. I’m so sorry to hear that you have to go through this difficult and scary time. Your attitude is absolutely in the right place and it sounds like you have so much love and support around you. Accept help from those you love and know that we are all thinking of you.

  14. 21

    I’ll send positive thoughts to you and your family. Stay strong. xo

  15. 23

    Oh Jen, I feel so bad that I’ve lost touch with you lately. I’m so sorry that you and your family have to deal with this. I honestly think that in order to get through something like this you have to rage a bit, have faith that things will work out, lean on those who love you when you feel overwhelmed and lastly, FIGHT with all you’ve got.
    I’m so happy that you got checked out early. It can make all the difference. I’m adding you and yours in my prayers.

    Laurie

  16. 25

    I’m so sorry you are having to go through this! I love your positive outlook and am so glad they caught it early! Praying for you!

  17. 26

    I’m so sorry to hear your news but happy to hear you are ready to fight head on. This is beatable and you will win! Take heart in knowing you have lots of people supporting you. Stay strong, stay positive and focus on yourself, your family and your loved ones. I know it isn’t easy but keeping a good outlook makes all the difference. I know – I am a cancer survivor myself.

  18. 28

    My blessings to you and your family. I have been following your blog since you registered with us so I couldn’t just sit by and say nothing… The quote you picked is very beautiful, and inspiring. I do hope that you get better soon. All my best wishes,
    Isabella xx

  19. 30

    I’ve had skin cancer – several years ago, in my early thirties. If you ever need a little support, or would like to know anything about my own treatment, feel free to email me. I’d be happy to lend a shoulder.

    Sending you a hug and lots of support from my end of the cosmos…

    xox

  20. 32

    I’m so sorry to hear your news. I really appreciate your honesty and attitude — so brave of you to put it out there! You’re in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there!

  21. 34

    4 years ago, I was in severe pain and rushed to the Emergency Room in a state I was visiting. I found out I had a cyst that broke and if it hadn’t been for that cyst I wouldn’t have found out that there was a mass on my right kidney. I lost a kidney and a rib a month or so later. I had to drive from Washington to California because my insurance did not cover anything but an emergnecy room out of state. It’s now 2012 and I’m still going strong. You will too. The cancer will be taken care of, you caught it early. You will do well. You have a ton of friends who will be in it with you. God Bless, will keep you in my prayers.

  22. 36

    I vote fight like H***! Keeping you and the family in prayer. Good luck with treatment.

  23. 37

    you will be in my thoughts and prayers, nothing has more impact than hearing those words, You have cancer. I hope you’re in an area that has great hospitals, I was fortunate enough to live near Philadelphia and there were many great cancer hospitals to choose from. There is so much more than can do now a days, its good that you discovered it early.
    Be strong and have faith,
    Dennis

  24. 39

    You have such a good about this. My prayers are with you, friend.

  25. 41

    sending you much positive energy and love.

  26. 42

    Jen – stay strong – the best of luck with everything. I think it’s so sad that you actually have to worry about having insurance – no-one should need that extra worry, but it’s great that it was caught early. Keep us posted, and take care!

  27. 44

    Jen, I’m really really sorry to hear about the news and I feel bad that I wasn’t here reading your posts when you needed your support. To gather what’s going on I read your posts that I’ve missed. I’ll pray hard for you and will be thinking of you. I know you are already trying hard to be strong as much as you could. Hang in there. We are all thinking of you. Blogging is a nice way to feel happy and distracted, but please take good care. Sending positive energy to you!

  28. 46

    I’m so sorry to hear of the cancer. That’s the 2nd one I’ve heard of this week :( But glad to feel the positive vibes from you. Catching it early is a good thing … could be worse.
    From what I gather with all the comments, you have plenty of support and love, including mine. You’re in my prayers.

  29. 48

    Hugs Jen.
    Firstly, sorry that I wasn’t on this post much earlier. We are glad you caught it soon. Thinking and prayer for you during this trying times.
    Much love & hugs. Stay strong.

  30. 50

    Hugs to you, Jen…you know I’m in your corner and praying for you.

  31. 52

    Jen, my positive thoughts will be all sent your way! You’re on the right mind set to keep things positive and use your blog to voice your joys and frustrations. Your blog is your soap box. Use it! Stand tall and know that you have many people who are praying for you and love you.
    Much love and stay strong.

  32. 54

    I’m very sorry to hear it was not the result you hoped. But, it was caught early and you are young. I’ve known others in this position who were fine and so will you be. Stay positive.

  33. 56

    Jen, I’m so sorry to hear that, but I’m most certain that everything will turn out well, especially that it was discovered this early. Stay strong and sending lots of positive thoughts!

  34. 58

    Jen,

    Ah, crap! I was really hoping it would turn out to be just a sun spot. You know what? You are lucky that you caught it. Skin cancer is common, and it’s very likely curable when it is found in the early stages. Just keep going. Know that you have people out there who are praying for you and for your family. If you need to talk, I’m only an email away.

    • 59

      Thanks Mary – I kind of was too. But you’re right, I am lucky in so many ways! Thanks for the offer – I may just take you up on it!

  35. 60

    Oh, Jen!! I just saw this post. I’m so sorry for the bad news. I hope that it all works out for you!! My goodness I was praying so much that you would get better news. I’m glad they caught it early and you have insurance to deal with it. I hope the treatment is not bad and that it all gets better quickly!! I am so sorry again I did not see your posts earlier… :( Take care of yourself and keep positive. I will keep you in my prayers….

  36. 62

    Oh Jen, just read this on FB..I am truly sorry, but you will get out of it I am sure you will because you are strong and your prayers will be answered in the most positive way! I will keep you in my thoughts and keep praying, and wish you more strength to fight stronger!!!

  37. 63

    Jen…you are such a strong and special person. I have been thinking of you often. And I just have this feeling you are going to land on your two feet again and everything will turn out okay. But you will always be in my thoughts and prayers. And I will readily help you in any way I can. Will be sending you an email later on tonight!

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