After a long and torturous week of waiting for the biopsy results, I found out yesterday that I do indeed have skin cancer.
In one quick moment I was left thinking, holy crap I have skin cancer. Actually that’s not what I really thought, but since what I really thought isn’t particularly appropriate, we’ll just run with this.
I’m kind of floored by it. I guess there was a huge part of me that thought the biopsies they did were just routine. And now I’m scared. Scared and worried.
I’m sitting here trying hard not to feel overwhelmed. These are some of the moments in life I find the most difficult to deal with. Part of me wants to just scream and rage at the unfairness of it all. Part of me wants to fall apart and cry on the shoulder of someone I love. And part of me wants to fight like hell.
All evening, my thoughts kept returning to this quote:
“We don’t need more to be thankful for. We need to be more thankful.” –Unknown (<–tweet this quote)
I know this sucks, but the best way through it is to accept it and make the best of it…
So I will be more thankful. I’m thankful that it was caught early, and that I still have insurance. I’m thankful that I’m surrounded by the love and support of my family and good friends.
And I’m incredibly grateful for all the friends and even the total strangers who have stopped by and emailed with their love and well wishes. I’m thankful for all the prayers and the words of kindness. I wish I could open my heart to you and show you how much each and every single one of them means to me. I am so blessed!
Wherever this road may take me, I truly am thankful.