I am a rock.
No, actually, that’s not true.
Not today. Today I am a mushy gushy ball of emotional mess.
You see I had a biopsy done on Tuesday afternoon on my forehead and on the tip of my nose to check for skin cancer. They kind of hurt like nobody’s business, and they had to do stitches. Eight of them. Right smack dab I the middle of my face.
To make matters worse, my insurance will expire in about 30 days, so if the biopsy comes back positive I’m not really sure what I’ll do.
I’m trying hard not to freak out. But truth be told, I’m a little bit of a drama queen, and I’m finding it hard not to wallow in self-pity.
A few years ago, my best friend Laurie gave me this little book called Attitudes of Gratitude: How to Give and Receive Joy Everyday in Your Life. It’s a great little book which helps you slow down and focus your life and your thoughts around the positive in your life so that you may live with an attitude of gratitude.
Boy was that a book I needed to drag out this morning!
It’s my choice – focus on the negative and wallow in self-pity or focus on the blessings in my life and be filled with joy and gratitude.
So for today I will be grateful that I have health care now, and as of yet no real reason to be worried.
I am a rock!
Even if it’s a kind of weathered looking scraggly one…